 Posted Thursday, May 04, 2006 8:26 AM
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wow holly,
I have been a way for a while, and just got back to the website, and I just want to send you my love and support at such a tough time. I am so sorry to hear of your loss and urge you to GRIEVE GRIEVE GRIEVE - it is perfectly fine to do this, and trust me when my father's time comes, I will not be acting CS, I will miss my dad very dearly, and when the time comes, whether it is with in the next seconds or many years from now when it is his time, I will be greiving. Despite the fact that he is CS, I truly believe that he is going to heaven. from my perspective, he is very clearly brainwashed, and it is not his fault.....he is under the control of my step-mother, and must, for the time being go with the flow.........he was originally catholic prior my birth with my original mom, but then they changed over to CS because it just so happens that my mom and dad were trying everything to have me, and my birth just happened to take place when they found CS, hence the glory of CS "healing"....yada yada yada.
I am a grad of prin college C 02'
toodles
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Fully Relying On God for Salvation
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Posted Friday, May 05, 2006 4:08 AM
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Thanks Frongs,
I've wondered about heaven and my girls have asked. I always tell them what I do know. God is just, but he's merciful. He loves all of us and wants no one to perish or go to hell. I have to think, even though their devotion is misplaced, they felt they were staying true to God all the way to the end. And that all the times they heard the gospel as CSists, if it were'nt for the cultish nature, strange definitions, circular reasoning, and all, they would've accepted the gospel. And I know mom heard it because they came to many church events, like awana awards, awana derby, and Christmas performances. The rest, we leave to God.
Today, they are burrying the ashes and I didn't realize how hard that will be - to see my mom contained in a little box (time out for a little cry)..... I know she's not in there anymore..but she was once.
I didn't make it at school Wednesday. As I was walking in, someone asked me how I was, and I started blubbering and one of my friends came along that knew what was going on. She helped me get sub plans ready, kept students and other teachers away, and called a sub for me for the rest of the week. What a blessing to have friends that have been right where I am now.
I'm praying for an extra measure of strength today and continued grace and peace between the tow sides of the family. The way that is happening now is a wonderful blessing and has been a source of strength.
I have to go wake up the children and jhusband. We'll need to go soon.
Thanks everyone,
Holly
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Posted Friday, May 05, 2006 6:53 PM
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I'm glad you took a few days off school, Holly. You had enough on your plate without having to meet the needs and challenges of your students (I do some teaching and some subbing, so I can empathize here).
You're right about God being both just and merciful. I don't believe in universal salvation (the Bible simply doesn't teach this), but we can rest in the knowledge that God always does what is right. He knows the hearts of our loved ones better than we do.
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Posted Wednesday, June 07, 2006 2:31 AM
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Only saw your posts today and I am deeply moved. I am so sorry for your mother and hope that she was saved much pain. You mother was misled by a cult but with all her want and heart lived to please God as much as she could. God is rightous and merciful and I am sure his wisdom and merci exceeds our highest hopes.
I pray that you have the strength you need to go through this and that you will be able to live with the pain of having lost her, and that you allow to feel the grief. My mother died 32 years ago when I was 13 and it's difficult to remember the pain it caused as I lost my father at the same time and everything then was simply a nightmare. I understand it was so much that I simply repressed it and somehow functioned. But there were several times later on, eg when I was the age of my mother when she died and on several other occasions, when I terribly missed her and it felt as if I had lost her yesterday.
Take your time and may Jesus comfort you. He is the one who's with us both when we live and when we die.
Marion
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