Thanks for your post. This may be more than you want to hear...but when I get going on my rants here its hard to stop.  ; )

While my problems are the opposite of yours my marrital experiences over the last 5 years have certainly led me to question the choices I made when I chose to marry a Christian Scientist some 40 years ago. Having been raised in a not very churchy protestant family, CS sounded pretty cool to me. I especially liked the emphasis on LOVE and that they did not embrace the concept that man is basically evil.  I eventually joined TMC but it didnt take me long after seeing how the religion was practiced on a day to day basis by my husband and his family for me to learn it wasnt something I wanted to be a part of. The bad stuff I lived with for 35 years with my CS in-laws cannot even compare to the last 5 years however.  I have watched my husband refuse to go to a hospital when he had a heart episode.  Over 8 weeks my children and I watched him slip close to death, while every day he expected that healing that never came.  He finally went to the hospital and his congestive heart failure was under control in a matter of days.  But he felt like a failure.   Yeah thats what CS does to you.  Its HIS failure, to understand it...even after a life time of study, class, associations...he's still not good enough to make it work. (Even though his parents couldnt make it work in THEIR serioous illnesses either) So a few months later he stopped his life saving medication...and immediately he slipped down again. Guess what...no healing. Started the medication again and wallah, better again...stopped the meds...slipping down again.  And when I say slipping I mean scary..gasping for breath.  This time he thought he'd go to the BA. In the BA he had a stroke. Back to the hospital. Got a pacemaker. He is just OK now...the docs can only fix him so much now. I am wondering when he will stop the meds again.  To his mind he is still the failure and when taking meds embracing that horrid materia medica that his mother used to invoke like the devil incarnate. And, yeah, his loving family has become the enemy because we BELIEVE he has a heart problem.  Because we ask him to go to the hospital...we are the malicious malpracticers. Yeah, its probably all our fault. Its the practitioner who is the "DEAR" one. 

It has been hard to witness this behavior, this thinking. Its been hard for my children to witness it. A lifetime of being a good dad and a good provider has been overwritten by this absurd, hurtful behavior.

I am happy to hear you left CS.  If you question anything else, rejoice in that.

Square Peg